Thursday, June 3, 2010
Damn you pizza pizza!!
So I am apparently not in the weight loss mode yet. I have been trying and I did somewhat good today. Until dinner. Well. Until lunch. I made breakfast at home, which was egg whites, cheese and a wrap. Yum...I could eat this for every meal! Then I had sliced peppers for a snack and some pretzels. Lunch was shish-ka-bobs that I made yesterday...mainly veggies with 3 oz of steak and one serving of angel hair pasta(not white...but not wheat either). And someone brought bagels and left them on the lunch room table. Bagels have long been a weakness of mine. Basically anything carby...but there was a pumpernickle bagel in there and I ate it :( 370 calories with that and the one serving of cream cheese. So I was determined to continue eating good for the rest of the day, including dinner. I worked a 12 hour day today...I had to pick the baby up on the other side of town at my sister in law's house and then come home...I ate lunch at noon and by 650 I was absolutely starving :( So I ended up at little caesar's and ordered a $5 pizza. Then I ate 4 pieces, figuring they were small and thin crust and I was starving and in binge mode. 800 calories. and it isn't even awesome pizza. I am so frustrated with myself for stopping there. And I am upset that I binged (I don't purge...I just binge. Neither is better, but when I binge I just end up fatter). So...I am done with food for tonight and tomorrow will be a better day!! I really need to get my head on straight and just start eating better. I might start posting my food here for a few days so I can really be accountable for what I am eating. This can't be good for Mason either since I am breastfeeding him :( I must get this under control!!